MOM

Tears start before I get a start
How can I express my heart
To someone who physically
Is my heart
You say when I was born
It was like being handed an Angel
I wish that you could live there
In those beautiful colors
A sea of flowers
Sun’s warmth fills us with strength 
Our love keeps our hearts beating
No worries in the world
We are conquerors
Unstoppable children of God
Then life happens and all our insecurities
Become life’s false securities
Lies become who we are
So I take medicine to rewire
Through chemical reactions
That cause my thinking to change
When all I need is belief in the one
Who made me
Belief drives the honest behavior
Out of me
But I'm too weak to accept a change
In my thinking so I medicate 
Oh how I wish we could go back to the beginning
When life's decisions were made on pure love
And not built on human frailty
Or my twisted thinking based on a lie
That I'm never going to be good enough
And the only means of relief is addictions
When pure love was always the answer